well I am about to head to work an I'm watching this maderma commercial. Keep an eye on the little girl. You can see her chin still has a scar but looks like it has makeup over it. Why do commercials try to mislead you.
O well I'm on way to work let's hope I can change some things one customer at a time. Well talk to you all later.

well sorry to have been gone so long. I guess I should update a few things. I spent 2 years in college and I failed out. I spent more time with friends and my gf at that time. Also if she ever loos at this yes I do still love you, you taught me to be me and not worry what anyone else says. Sorry I wasn't better to you.

I guess the next part would be to say I need to work on my Japanese still because I still want to visit japan.

also I am going to Hawaii jan of 2011 to get my first tattoo and I'm hoping to get it done traditionally.

starting a month ago I started playing poker with the wptapl group locally so let me know if anyone wants to give me pointers.

currently I am working. Thanks to whoever was looking over me. I'm at a inbound call center now in Nashville. Also I hope to update more often. Sorry to everyone who was looking forward to my writing.

I have been working on appointments. Back, eye, counciling, and random others. I have started to look into options for next semester classes. Japanese and leadership courses along with my core classes. 

I also have talked to my parents about the trip to hawaii over the summer or early fall. I would be getting my hawaiian family to go with me  for my tribal leg tattoo from there. It is sentimental to me since i was a boy i remember wanting a hawaiian tattoo since it was their passage into manhood.

Well not much else to chat about at the moment sorry for the lack of posting but i will be back with more soon.

Many of us foreigners don't understand the concept that the social groups we are placed in rely on each individual to make that click whole. Furthermore we don't understand the concept of being socially acceptable while not making others conform to society. The laws are not in place it is a social customization. If certain ideals are not kept then society will turn on itself like a tidal wave. I am committing social sepukku or suicide. I am sharing what i believe instead of conforming to or adhering to a particular society. I have made bad choice in life before when I was young. Looking back i realize that i should step aside from what is going on and realize the "honor" that i can make for my name or  take away from my family name. Similar to prestige or a tally board on a grand scale.Western culture cannot condone suicide. I however do. It alienates me to think that killing myself would negate my loss of honor, as opposed to me living a fulfilling life and over time at least bring myself to erase some or all of the shame i caused my family. 

Im ranting and dont realy have much to say but maybe i can look back on this and say to myself wel atleast im learning to change my views on how the world works.